Long before I had a baby, I quit my job and moved to a new country with my husband. I became a Stay-at-home-Wife. Of course, I kept looking for new opportunities at the work field but somehow God had other plans for our family. My husband had a decent job and I continued being the Homemaker. In the eyes of the world, somehow it seemed like I was failing by staying at home and not contributing to the workplace. It seemed I was wasting my time and talent specially when I had a professional degree and had experience working at multinational firms.
However, I knew that was what God was asking me to do at that time in my life. Being a wife to my wonderful husband and finding joy in small things! Yes, I found joy in my ordinary life. We were blessed with friends during each phase of our life. My husband and I traveled and visited lot of beautiful places. I blogged during my free time. Cooking became my passion and I loved inviting people over to our house. Our lives were joyful even amidst the cross of Infertility and Pregnancy Losses.
God surprised us with our miracle baby and I became a Stay-at-home-Mom. God was preparing me all those previous years to take care of my little one. Even before my baby was conceived, I knew that I wanted to stay home and be a Mom. Simply ‘being present’ as a Mother to my children. The transition from being a wife to Mom was not an easy one. Every day brought its own joys and sorrows. The sleepless nights, the fatigue, the desire to be the perfect Homemaker all made it challenging.
God has blessed our family with a stable job and I am grateful that I get to stay home. The struggles are real as I take care of my toddler who keeps me on my toes. There are days when I cry out of exhaustion, days when I wish time would fly and that my husband would be home to give me a break. I get very less ‘Me’ time but I know I am raising my child to be a Saint when the worldly wisdom says otherwise. There will be messy kitchens, sinks filled with dishes, food on the floor but in the end it won’t matter as I am not perfect and I need to rely on God for grace to handle my daily tasks. I am praying for God to fill my heart with joy and peace as I take care of my family. Let my daily chores and inconveniences become my joyful cross. Lord, help me trust in you and transform me into a joyful, kind, compassionate, loving daughter of God.
“You are rewarded not according to your work or your time but according to the measure of your love.” ~ St. Catherine of Siena